Washed Up

Salt water enveloped my bare feet as the foam cleared away. They glistened in the late morning sun as I studied the sand that lingered in the crevasses between my toes. I dug them deeper into the sand until I could no longer see the chipped jade polish, as I watched the water trickle away back down the beach from where it came, only to be swallowed by the next wave coming in.

I thought of the new girl now taking my place in my old band. How bright eyed and eager she had been, though a little naïve she was, and star struck.  Living the dream, she was, right? Give it time, I thought. That world would swallow her up too, just as it had swallowed me. Of course, she loved it, just as I had, and lived for the buzz of that stage and the lights loved her, as they had once loved me, but I knew only too well how unforgiving those lights could be. She of course showed promise, but I wondered how my girls truly received her. Would they accept her as a Mermaid? Those girls squabbled over the lead spot after I left, but I wondered if she would surpass and outshine them in the spotlight, better than all of them put together? Growing up, they were my best friends, as close to me as sisters, but that was so long ago now. I wondered if they thought of me still in that way. Were they angry, or perhaps even a little jealous? I missed them all but it was no secret I was outgrowing them fast. Everybody knew it, including Ursula, my singing coach and Sebastian Fish, Dad’s assistant who was like another father to me.

Everybody of course saw me growing in leaps and bounds away from The Mermaids, except Dad. He had poured so much money and effort into marketing the Mermaids and managed our rising success, as founder of Triton Records, though I felt in safeguarding me from the clutches of the solo career that was beckoning me, I felt he was holding me back, just a little too tight, and the harder he tried to reign me in, the stronger I dug my heels in, determined to break away from his Label, The Mermaids and everything that kept me from a chance to shine on my own.

I remembered the last words he’d said when I finally left The Mermaids for the promise of a solo career. “You’re not ready, but I have to let you go find your way. I’m disappointed in you, Aria.” Those words stung my heart and to this day would haunt me. We never spoke again.

I pushed on with Ursula as my new manager under her newly formed Label, Silverfish, and rose to the top with my first Number one hit. Sebastian stuck around for a while, but feeling that he was only there to report back to Dad of my success and every failure between, I pushed him away too, not realizing he was the only one who could see what Ursula was doing to my career. Never satisfied with what success trickled my way like the waves on that beach I was now sitting, Ursula pushed me harder than I’d ever worked in my life. Every song I sang required her seal of approval and I was oblivious to my voice slowly slipping away. In the studio, Ursula was relentless.

“Do it again!” She would scream at me after every take and I would sing the track again. “Again!” She would scream and I would lay track after track till I was hoarse.

“Don’t get complacent, girl!” She once told me after I won Best New Single and Female Vocalist of the Year in my first year, as a soloist. Fame was fleeting she told me, ripping away any remnant of joy from the moment. There was no after party for me, no downtime, only more studio time working on the follow up album.

“Hard work! That’s what will set you up in this business.” Longevity was the magic word she threw at me every time, I uttered a syllable of complaint. “In the music industry,” she told me, “That is how you measure success.” The harder I worked, the harder she pushed.

With Dad no longer speaking me and the Mermaids nothing more than a memory to me, and my voice all but gone I had nothing left to lose. Silverfish had everything to gain from my rapidly drying career, and my successes which soon grew fewer and farther between.

Ursula was like a mad woman steering what was left of my career in any direction she could sniff out the smallest fumes of a promise for more success, but really, she was driving my career into the ground fast. All but swallowed up by Ursula’s greed, I’d pushed myself so hard, for so long, for no reward, that even the music was losing its magic for me. In the nightmare of my life, I was losing sight of my dream.

While I pasted on a smile and shone on a different stage every night, sprinkling my song like star dust over an adoring crowd, the feeling was always the same dread. I had forgotten to save some of that magic for myself, no not forgotten, now I realized as I looked back on those times. I had forbidden myself from keeping enough to sustain myself, and as a result I was dead inside. By the time I finally collapsed from exhaustion on stage, I was no longer singing from my heart, just my throat, and it hurt like hell. “Go! I have no use for you now,” Ursula had told me as we severed the contract. As far as she was concerned I was done as a singer.

I sat on that beach in the warm sun that gently burned my flesh, I watched the sea as each new wave swallowed the one before and I shuddered. How caught I felt in rip of a now dead career. The Mermaids would never want me back, and even though I considered reuniting with the girls, I knew deep down I no longer belonged there anyway.

I picked up a small twig and with it I drew a large shell in the wet sand beside me, studying its perfect shape as I brushed away the excess mess of sand, leaving a crisp line. In the center I wrote my name, Aria, and I noted how most of the letters clung together as if they belonged that way, while the A stood alone at the start, as if daring to break away as I had from The Mermaids, in a desperate now failed attempt to shine on my own. Dad was right. I was not ready and now I was sitting there feeling alone on the beach in my grief for all I had lost in my climb to the top of a crumbling ladder, falling hard when I could no longer hang on.

I twisted a long strand of my hair, red as fire, into a thick ringlet, before raking my fingers through it breaking it apart into smaller masses of spring curls over my now glowing pink shoulder, the ends meeting the sand where the water washed over them and the shell till it and my name disappeared.

I extended that same hand I’d been using to comb my hair, and found the hand of the one man who managed to breathe life back into my heart, after Ursula had sucked out my soul and left me for dead. I laced my fingers through Erik’s as we watched the sea together. My turquoise eyes met his sparkling sapphire blues and he smiled. His love washed over me warm like the sunlight in a clear blue sky, and it was then I realized, he was the one person in my life who never made me question his love. With all the warmth he showered me with, he asked for nothing in return, yet until that moment I was always too afraid to open my heart to him, for fear he would eventually spit me out too when he was done. How could I love him? I hadn’t figured out how to even open my heart to myself.

“What’s going on in that head of yours?” he asked as I struggled to return his smile.

“Stuff,” I answered as I dropped my hand and my eyes to the spot where my name had been, scooping away the remaining water that had washed it away. A tear burned its way down my cheek before dropping to the sand where it dissolved. I felt in that moment that I could disappear too.

Erik retraced my name and then taking my hand in his again, he used my finger to draw a heart around my name, where the shell had been and I knew what he was trying to remind me.  “Love yourself, Aria.” He would tell me always. It was something I struggled a lot, to remind myself, but with each passing day I was getting better at it.

Impulsively thinking this was the perfect time to start honouring me, I rose to my feet. Taking Erik’s hand, I helped him to his feet too. Not yet ready to let his hand go again, I raced with him in tow to the sea. He matched my stride by stride as we jumped the waves till we were both thigh deep in the ocean. It was then I let go.

This was something only I could do for me. I dived under the sea and let the waves swallow me as I forged my way forward, clawing the sand beneath me, towards my future. In that moment, despite everything I’d lost, my Dad, The Mermaids, my career and my voice for a while, I realized what I found was more important. Erik was the first to love me for me and he was teaching me to love me also. I would learn to sing again, this time not with the Voice of Ursula, and her team of songwriters and producers, but with my own.

With beautiful Erik by my side, allowing me my own space, his love never faltering, I was finding my strength to stand in that space, and shine on my own for the first time ever. It was in finding me, for the first time in my life, I was no longer lost, but free.

 

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Passing Time

“You. Asking me. Out on a date?”

Vicki’s usually porcelain perfect face instantly turned into a scowl of distain. Her smile seemed to fall off as a frown took its place and I wondered why I had even bothered. Of course, she’d be disgusted! I could just see her inwardly retching as her face twisted, turning green, and I felt vile. Yet like a dog latching onto a bone, determined, I proceeded. Oh well, it’s out there now, I thought. Nothing left to lose.

“Look, um, I know it’s a stupid idea, but hear me out!”

She looked more annoyed now than ill, “Sure…” she said. She glanced at her iPhone and blushed. I watched a small smile return to her ruby lips briefly. She let a giggle slip and for a moment she looked genuinely happy. Startled, her ocean blue eyes suddenly met mine. Like sand to the sea my muddy brown eyes locked on to hers as they crashed over me like waves of disapproval. “Oh… You’re still here.” Her words were like a swift boot to the chest.

I turned away, defeated and started towards the bus stop at the edge of the school yard, just beyond the wire gate.

“Is that it?” she called. I stopped, dead, waiting for the ensuing ridicule I was sure was next. A small glimmer of hope was forming, just to mock me. Stop it! As if! I told myself. Expectation only ends in disappointment, a voice said in my mind, though I questioned if those words were even mine.  “You wanna go out, or don’t you?” she asked.

“Sure!” Too eager I thought. “I guess…” I answered, trying to sound less desperate, if possible.

“Great! We can go to the movies,” She said. The handed me the phone for me to put my number in. “Pick me up at 8!”

With shaky hands, I took the phone and fumbled as I swiped the screen. Get your shit together, Ethan, I told myself as I entered my number into the phone as new contact.

I handed it back to her, noting the residual pink glitter on my fingers from the case. “Okay, see you then.”

She looked at her screen again, smiled as she swiped and began tapping expertly. Probably texting her friend, I thought, about the idiot who dared to look in her direction, much less poorly attempt to ask her on a date. Just call me the walking punchline, only not funny.

“I gotta go!” I said, scrambling for an escape, which luckily came in the form of the number 3 bus, which I was about to miss. I thanked God for impeccable timing as I made a dash for it, out the gate, not daring for a second to glance back at her as I skipped the steps onto the bus. I dug deep into the pocket of my shorts for my swipe card and tapped the machine. It buzzed at me, mockingly and the light glared an angry red. I plunged it back in my pocket and dug round for change that I knew was not there. In the other pocket, I found my phone instead, vibrating as it beeped. Instinctively I pulled it out as the driver waved me on impatiently. I almost fell into my seat as the bus took off. I opened my dodgy Motorola. What. The fuck! I thought. There was a new message waiting. I opened it and read the address, and the words that followed. “See you. Heart. Smiley face. Don’t be late.”

A plan was already forming by the time the bus reached my stop. As the bus pulled away from the roadside and disappeared around the bend, I trudged up my dirt driveway, through the long grass, not bothering to dodge the large bindi patch that divided the long track that led to the carport of a rundown wooden shack. To the right of the driveway, just below the steps, sat a rusty old Victor, accompanied by a tin – Dad’s not-so-subtle hint, I guessed. I wondered for a moment, what had he done with his day? Same thing he’d done every other day for a year, I guessed. I marched up to the mower, kicking my way through dandelions that stood as if to greet me.   There was no satisfaction found in watching them disintegrate before my eyes.

The bright side of this, I thought, was it would sweeten the deal with Dad. He’d have to let me borrow the ‘Commie’ after a job well done. I pictured the rusted old thing puttering up Vicki’s immaculate street, and parking barely idling in her pristine concrete driveway, lined with perfectly pruned hedges. I cringed as I saw myself peering over the worn out steering wheel through the cracked windscreen up that driveway to a two-story brick house that looked just like every other house on her street, cold, uninviting and completely off-limits to a scrubber’s son, like me, well I would be, I thought, if Dad actually had a job.

I dumped my bag on the termite riddled step and watched as a piece of the rotting wood fell away. Realizing I was still in my school uniform, I took off the holey faded blue sports shirt – the only one I owned, and threw it on top of my bag. Still in my shearer’s singlet and shorts, I grabbed hold of the mower’s choke and pulled, hoping the thing would roar to life. No such luck. It continued to sit lifeless, with red paint peeling off it. I tried again harder, and again and then a fourth time, before running out of steam. Thinking I needed to top it up, I picked up the tin, but it felt too light to hold any fuel.

“Piece of crap!” I booted the tire, threw tin on the ground and as it landed with a loud clang I marched up the steps into the house, picking up my bag and shirt on the way, and leaving the mower to continue doing what it did best, only to find Dad inside with a VB can in his hand, doing what he did best. There were six more stacked in a pyramid and several more sprawled on a small table next to his grubby bare feet and an open pack of Winnie blues. It must be pay day, I thought.

“How many have you had, Dad?” Not that I needed to ask. It wasn’t quite his record, I noticed, but he didn’t appear to be far off it.

“Don’t start, mate!” He slurred, barely looking at me. “It’s been a hard day.”

“Clearly,” I said, gesturing towards the ‘beeramid’ and then out the open window to where the mower sat, visible and dormant next to the tin. “S’pose I’ll have to get the fuel for it too?”

“There’s none in it?”

“Do you hear it idling, Dad?”

He started to lunge off the couch, his fist raised and I braced myself awaiting the backhand that never came. “Don’t get smart with me, boy, or it’ll be the last thing you say!” Losing balance, he collapsed back onto the chair. Clearing his throat, “I uh, hope you’re not expecting me to drive you to the servo!”

“All good, Dad.” Then seizing the perfect opportunity, I suggested, “I could go myself, if I can borrow the car?”

“Nah, Son, she’ll be right. I’ll go in the morning.” He went to take another swig from his can, only to notice was empty. He held it up, shaking it, before throwing it down on the table knocking the ‘beeramid’ as it landed. I watched a couple of cans roll onto the floor.  “Help your old man out, will ya?” I sighed and went to the kitchen to grab him another.

I spied the fresh box on the floor beside the fridge as I entered. A large hole had been torn out of the corner and as I reached in, I notice there was already a whole row missing. When I opened the fridge, I saw only two on the shelf. I took both out, pocketed the spare, closed the fridge and marched back into the lounge room, where Dad was already stacking zeds. His head was slumped forward, one arm draped over the arm of the couch and the other limp beside him clutching an almost full ciggie. The last ember burned a hole into the cushion, leaving an awful stench as the ash dropped off the end and died. He let out a loud snore as I slinked down the hall to my room still holding the can. He won’t miss these, I thought, closing the door behind me, before cracking it open. I surveyed my dump of a room, almost choking on the smell and saw comic books, magazines, a duffle bag and the few clothes I owned, scattered in piles on every inch of the floor. There was my T-shirt from the previous weekend, lying in a pile of holey socks and a questionable pair of boxes. It was on that pile that I dumped my school shirt and my bag. A pair of Dad’s jeans were draped over my computer chair, the belt still in them. I only remembered to pry the buckle out from under my butt when it dug in, almost piercing my skin as I sat.

I was surprised Dad hadn’t demanded I give them back yet, I had only ‘borrowed them the month before, but then I hadn’t needed any lashings from the belt lately. He’d been doing just fine with just his fists.

I sipped the fresh bubbling beer and shuddered as the first sour drops trickled down my throat. Yet I’d already numbed myself mentally to the taste. I took another swig and set it down next to an open Spiderman comic on my cluttered desk.

Over my rusted wooden bedhead, Kurt Cobain glared down at me from a large wrinkled poster, that clung to the wall with blu-tac. The top corner had come away from the wall and drooped down, threatening to take the rest of the poster with it. I reached over the bed and picked up Dad’s old acoustic guitar, that was leaning on the mattress. I sat it across my knees and, feeling the ridges on the lowest E string, I lazily plucked the string, with my thumb, not really hearing the notes or the squeaking of the string as I moved the other hand up the neck. I positioned my fingers, one by one on the fretboard, forming the D chord, the only chord Dad had bothered to teach me and strummed. Yet another promise he couldn’t be bothered to keep, I thought angrily as I threw the guitar across the room. All six strings seemed to scream in agony as it landed, though not hard enough for the strings or the neck to break, with a thud on the floor. Kurt’s face appeared to mock me as I cursed my ‘skills’.

Resorting to the one thing I remembered Dad ever teaching me, even if just through years of observation, I rose the can to my lips and skulled, until I was gasping for air.

“No wonder she left!” I muttered, thinking of my mother. I hadn’t seen her since I was five.

I slammed the half empty can on the desk, knocking it over. I ignored the foaming mess that now spilled onto Spiderman’s angry face, as the black lines disappeared into the red, leaving just a blob. I no longer cared.

I spied the time on my watch as Vicki’s porcelain perfect face flashed before me. 6:50. I pictured her sitting in her Ikea filled lounge room, an hour from that moment, on a flawless white couch, inspecting her freshly curled golden locks, looking all cute in what was likely something prissier than that ridiculous sparkly phone case of hers, and even more pink. I could see her staring at that stupid phone, watching the seconds tick over on the screen, waiting for the message from me, letting her know I was on my way. Did dudes even do that?

“Oh Victoria,” I could hear her just as perfect mother’s soothing voice comforting her. “Don’t worry, Hun, he’s not worth it.” I thought about saving her the trouble as I opened my phone and pressed the left top button repeatedly until the menu showed an option to reply.

“I guess I already knew that, Mum,” I could just hear her reply. Finally something we would both agree on.

I began tapping out a message, before hitting delete.  “Screw her!” I slammed the phone shut and stuffed it back into my pocket.

I grabbed my duffle off the floor and began shoving as much as I could fit into it, including the jeans and belt. I took the unopened can out of my pocket and stuffed it into the side of my bag before piling more clothes on top of it. I eyed the acoustic, as I zipped up the bag and slung the strap over my shoulder. No point, I grumbled and left the abandoned guitar where it lay face down, along with every memory, on the floor and closed the door, leaving it all behind me.

Dad was still snoring, although it appeared he had woken at some point, only to stretch his feet out on the couch, his head resting on the arm of the chair. The silhouette of a blowfly buzzed in front of the still open window against the last firy red signs of a dying day. The fly hovered, briefly over Dad’s open mouth before buzzing back out into the open air. Letting out another snore, I watched as the large man rolled towards the back of the couch. Thick wiry spirals of hair peaked out of the neck of his stained orange shirt, blending into the matted graying mass on his head. I eyed the Winnie blues still in the packet, with only enough space for his lighter. On the table amongst the cans was his wallet. I quickly pocketed the smokes and opened the wallet, taking out the only notes in there. I stuffed the two fifties into my pocket also and placed the wallet back on the table ensuring it was put in exactly the same place I had found it. It was only then I noticed the ring of keys sprawled on the table. I clasped my hand over them, knowing, Dad would only have to hear the jingle and instantly wake up, no matter how drunk he was. This was not the first time I had tried to swipe them, but this time I was determined to get away with it. I expertly closed my hand around the shiny metal and scooped them up.

I crept out the door, down the steps and past the mower, tripping over the petrol tin. Shit! I thought, but I refused to be taken down. I rounded the corner into the carport and unlocked the car. I threw the bag over the driver’s seat into the back before sliding in behind the wheel. After several false starts, the motor finally ticked over, barely clinging to life as I backed out of the driveway, narrowly missing the mower. It was only as I sped down the driveway, tires spinning that I saw Dad in the rearview through the dust, staggering down the steps, shaking his fist, before tripping over the mower as he tried to sink the boot in. I didn’t have to hear what he was yelling. His face said it all and I was not sticking around for another flogging.

I floored it out onto the road, only then noticing the little needle sitting under the E line on the fuel gage. I had no idea where I was going, only that it would have to be via the servo.

I pulled up next to the pump and turned the ignition off. As I stood between the pump and the car, with the nozzle in the tank, I watched the numbers creep up to 20:00. I figured that would at least get me out of that part of town.

As I walked in to pay, I passed a stand with bunches of flowers for ten bucks. I stopped. I guess I could pick Vicki up after all. I snatched up the only bunch of pink flowers and stormed into the shop, mentally adding the cost to the fuel I’d just put in and deciding I still had enough to take her to the flicks and leave town, if I got her a choc top instead of popcorn. Plus, I thought, it would buy me time to figure out what to do next. I paid for the fuel and the flowers and left the servo, smoking up Dad’s balding tires. My phone beeped as I took the next exit near her street. I pulled over to the curb to check and saw the new message waiting. “Are you still coming?” it read and I realized Vicki was not the sought who would sit, waiting too long. Of course, she would have a backup plan, I thought, and back up plans for that backup plan, and yet she was texting me. Noting it was already 8pm I floored it halfway up her street and pulled over again, leaving the car idling as I sat gathering my thoughts. The neighborhood looked exactly as I pictured it. I considered turning the car off and walking up the driveway to meet her, but I was in no mood for meeting mothers. Instead I honked the horn and waited. It was barely a minute before Vicki was letting herself out of what looked like the biggest house on the street, wearing, of course, pink. Her curls bounced as she jogged down the steps, and out the driveway, before stopping to scan the street. I flashed the one working headlight to high beam and she bounced towards the car, sticking her head through the passenger side window and immediately she scrunched up her face.

“Nice ride!”

“It goes,” I said as she opened the door and barely noticed the flowers before sitting down.

She held them up to see them better in the street light. “Are these for me?”

Ever brilliant as always, I thought. “Yeah,” I said.

“Thanks.” She closed the door. She inspected them for a moment, before putting them over onto the back seat. It was only then she noticed the duffle. “Going somewhere?” A shadow of regret rested on her face.

“Yeah,” I said. “The movies, remember?”

Her face brightened as she settled into the seat, buckling up the seatbelt. I pulled the old bomb back out onto the road, with the most caution I’d taken all night, and we puttered down the road.

“Is that your bag?” she asked.

“Uh yeah…” I was in no mood to open up about why it was there. “Long story.”

Neither one knew what to say after that so we both sat in silence the rest of the way. No doubt this would be the second thing we’d ever agree on, that this was a waste of time, yet, it bought me two hours I would spend, figuring out the rest of my life.

I Let Go

Little by little I let go.
Of those who were only in my life to cause harm I let go, then of those who simply were not conducive of where I was headed in life I let go, then of those who brought me unhappiness in life I let go, of those who tried to control me I let go, of those who took all I had offer in life without giving back I let go, of those who it was just too painful to keep loving I let go, of those who should’ve loved me but chose not to I let go, then of the people who promised the world and delivered nothing I let go, then of the people who either did not know how to respect me or knew and chose not to I let go, of the people who found it easy to drop me, walk away from me and forget about me I let go, of the people who kept me around to help build their dreams and but couldn’t find it in them to support me in mine I let go, of those who brought me anxiety and dread at the thought of them I let go, and then of those who filled my life perpetual drama and senseless noise I let go.
Little by little I let go of all who for whatever reason fractured, shattered, bruised, stomped on and scarred my heart.
I just let go.
I let go then of the part of me that allowed all that to happen.
I let go of the part of me who needed to please people who couldn’t or wouldn’t be pleased.
Little by little I let go of it all.
Now my life is simple, now I am putting me first always and now I am creating, thinking, even dreaming a little but finding contentment in my life right now in the present.
I let go but I don’t feel lonely, I finally feel complete.
Little by little I like let go of who and what didn’t serve me and now I am free.

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Close the Chapter

Close the chapter
But not the book.
To find yourself
You need to look.
A new beginning,
A chance to heal.
Defrost yourself
Relearn to feel.
Let go of the past,
But not to forget.
Out with the old
With no regrets.
Keep the lessons,
But cut the threads.
Reset yourself,
Put the past to bed.
Forgive old hurts,
You’re off the hook.
Close the chapter,
But not the book.

The Troubled Fairy Child

Please be sure to read The Fairy and the Goblin before proceeding.

One morning, in a garden in my front yard, a fairy queen watched outside the window of her lair and smiled at the view. The sky was the bluest she’s ever seen and for miles all she could see was the green hills and a horizon lined with beautiful palm trees. She could see her children, three, playing below her window, their giggles like music in the early morning. “Good morning, Dahlia!” she heard a cheerful voice say from behind her. She turned to the bed to see that the once, sleeping fairy king had woke and was sitting up in the bed, yawning.
“Good morning to you, too,” she replied. He moved beside her, taking her hand and together they watched their triplets as they fluttered about, playing tag.
The oldest of the triplets was Marc, the only boy. The oldest by 3 minutes, he was the heir to the thrown and quite an intelligent child. Like his mother, sisters and most of the fairy kind, he had a mass of golden curls which shone in the early morning sun. His sisters, Tahnia and Krysta were both more like their father in looks, with skin, paler than the majority of fairy kind. Tahnia was the oldest of the two girls, by 1 minute. She was beautiful, witty and had the most amazing imagination, a true princess she was in the sense of the word. Krysta, who was unsure of her place in her family, often found herself being mildly Jealous of her sister.
As the youngest, Krysta felt like she was the last resort in her parents eyes. She loved her brother and sister dearly, as they did her, but when your oldest sister is Father’s little princess and your brother is next in line to be king, really, Krysta often thought, what’s left for me? Krysta tried to make up for her ‘invisibleness’ by being mischievous and was often caught out, playing tricks on her brother and sister and the other fairies.
The three children, had inherited abilities from their mother and father. They all had the ability to fly. Marc’s ability was healing, Tahnia’s was to see people for who they really were and allow others to see what she saw, and Krysta could grant wishes. Unlike her brother and sister, who abided by the fairies’ law, Krysta used her abilities for self-gain and these actions often saw consequences return three-fold. This time would be no different.
Krysta felt very left out, for her brother and sister were pretending that they were the Fairy king and queen and that Krysta was the evil fairy named Lord Alexander, who was turned into a goblin and banished from the Fairy kingdom. They “banished” her from the kingdom. The older siblings sent her to the edge of the kingdom, so Krysta decided, that she really would leave, just to spite them.
The mischievous fairy made her way under the house through the dirt and mud, until she found herself in Goblin territory. All around her were ugly blue creatures with black hair and red eyes, trying with all their might to latch onto her. Frightened and disgusted, Krysta turned around and ran, as fast as her little lags could take her, her tiny transparent wings fluttering madly. When she was away from the goblins, she stopped, and realized that she was lost. It was dark and cold and all Krysta wanted was to be home again, with her family. Krysta buried her head in her hands and started to sob. “I wish I hadn’t run away. I know that Marc and Tahnia were sometimes mean, but at least I could trust them.”
“Don’t cry precious,” She heard a voice say. “They probably don’t miss you. They probably don’t even realize you are not there.” Krysta looked up. A young goblin child was sitting beside her, but he appeared different to the other goblins, with dark brown hair and black eyes. He was a lighter shade of blue, then the others, too. Krysta was at first frighten, but the goblin seemed friendly and willing to listen to her. So Krysta told the goblin about herself and her brothers and sisters and why she what brought her to their land in the first place.
The goblin then introduced himself as Alex and told her a little about himself, how he was an orphan and couldn’t remember his parents. “You are very lucky,” he said to have a family. If you really want to go back to them, I will show you the way, but there is a price. You must make me a fairy, like you.”
Krysta thought about this for a few seconds. “Okay,” she finally said, “I’ll do it.” So with the help of Krysta, Alex transformed into a fairy-boy, with golden curls and green eyes. She also gave him the power of flight and the ability to become invisible and to morph into any of the other fairies. She thought it would be fun to have someone to help her play tricks on the other fairies. In return, Alex escorted her back to the fairy kingdom, where the two naughty fairies played many tricks on Tahnia and Marc, but Krysta, always made sure that she kept her father from seeing Alex, for she knew that the fairy king would find out that he was really a goblin. Alex didn’t want the king to find out who he really was….
However, the other fairies found it strange that suddenly there was another fairy child, Marc and Tahnia took Alex aside and through fake tears he told them about his life as an orphan, but left out the detail about him being a goblin. Tahnia put her hand on his shoulder to comfort him. As she did so, flashes of an evil fairy clouded her vision, and she saw her father as a young fairy being threatened by this horrible creature. She then saw the fairy turned into a goblin and banished by her grandfather, the previous fairy king. Tahnia took her hand back as if it stung her. “You’re Lord Alexander aren’t you, the fairy who hurt my father?”
As he felt his cover was blown, Alex morphed into his true fairy form, Lord Alexander. “Yes,” he said with a hounting laugh, “ and you can thank your sister for turning me into the pathetic little fairy child. She has helped me to regain my powers so I can take back Dahlia and the thrown that is rightfully mine!” At that moment Krysta found them and was surprised at the site before her. Marc turned to her with a look that Krysta could tell was disappointment. “I didn’t know,” she whimpered in a small voice. Without an explanation Marc took his two sisters by the hand and they ran as fast as the could go, their wings lifting them into the air as the began to fly to their parents’ lair. Krysta sobbed all the way, for she knew the trouble she had caused would make her parents want to punish her. Lord Alexander followed a small distance behind.
“Father!” Marc cried. “We have something to tell you!” Before he could say another word, Lord Alexander appeared.
“Yes,” said the bad fairy, “I have returned, Goblin-Boy, to take back what’s mine!”
“Over my dead body!” Spike replied. Dahlia hugged her three children to her chest as the two fairies prepared for battle.
The king tried with all his might to fight Lord Alexander but the bad fairy was stronger than he and the force of his powers sent Spike flying back until he hit the wall and fel to the grown. “Father!” Krysta cried. She ran to him and taking him by the hand, she helped him to his feet.
“Go back to your mother!” Spike cried. “I don’t want you to get hurt!” But Krysta felt that since she was responsible for the battle and wanted to help her father. She thought for a moment. Suddenly she had an idea!
“Wait!” She cried. “Father, make a wish!”
Spike was confused. “What should I wish for?” he asked as Lord Alexander prepared to launch another gust of energy towards the king.
“Anything to make him go away!” Krysta replied.
So the Fairy king wished that Lord Alexander would become a goblin again and be stripped of his power’s once more. “You are NEVER to return again.” Once again, Lord Alexander was banished. Spike turned to his youngest daughter. “Thank you for helping me fight Lord Alexander,” A tear rolled down Krysta’s cheek as she apologized to her father for the mess she’d made. “But for a while I will take your abilities away until you can learn to used them properly. This could have been worse, today. No more tricks on the other fairies and never leave the kingdom!” He then turned to Marc and Tahnia, who were still cowering in their mother’s arms. “and no more “Banishing” your sister. I will be the one to do the banishing around here.”
Yes, Father,” The children answered at the same time.
“Do you want to be the queen this time, Krysta?” Tahnia asked as the children left, to play.
“Okay!” said Krysta. As Spike and Dahlia overheard the conversation, they smiled proudly. Krysta, could be a good fairy child, but it would take a lot of help from the other fairies, and it would take time, lots of time.
THE END

The Fairy and the Goblin

Once upon a time, there was a beautiful fairy who lived in the my garden under the bottle brush. She was ten inches tall with the most magnificent glittering, transparent wings that sprouted from her shoulders and touched the ground. Her hair was like spun gold that fell down her back in beautiful curls. Her name was Dahlia.
She was no ordinary fairy, though. She was the only daughter of the Fairy King and Queen, and therefore was a princess who would one day be a queen. With this role came great powers of flight, healing and the ability to grant wishes. There was only one catch. These powers could not be used for self-satisfaction as it was her duty to deny her self of any indulgences, for the fairies were to be the most selfless of all creatures.
Dahlia was always a dutiful fairy who submissively abided by the laws of the fairy kind while longing to fall in love. She was to be betrothed, but she could not bring herself to love Lord Alexander, her future king, though her mother and father adored him. The king and queen were quite proud of their daughter and what she had bloomed to be. They never dreamed that this would one day change…..Nevertheless, one day it did. She met Spike.
Spike was the insurgent youngest son of the family of blue goblins who lived in the dirt under my house. He had recently been banished to live in the drainpipe on the corner of the house, near the Fairies’ lair because he refused to succumb to the awful ways of the goblins.
For most of his child hood, Spike had secretly watched the fairies, in particular, Dahlia, observing the beautiful way in which she fluttered about, carrying out her fairy duties. He’d fallen in love with Dahlia, and wished with all his heart that he could somehow become a fairy like her so that she could get to know him and fall in love with him.
Spike sat on the edge of a drain one day, with his chin resting on his knees and his face in his hands. He sighed (a little too) loudly. “Oh, to be a fairy.” He whispered to himself. “So you could love me, Dahlia. I would shed this ugly goblin skin and leave my awful heritage behind, forever.” A single tear dripped down his cheek and fell on to a clover below.
Dahlia heard him as she was fluttering past the drainpipe. She perched beside him, on the edge of the drain and put her hand on his shoulder. “There, there, poor creature,” she whispered, softly. Her voice was angelic, like the sweetest music ever heard, “You must not cry.”
Spike looked up and thought he was dreaming. Here he was sobbing his heart out and this beautiful creature who he had admired all his life from afar was sitting beside him, comforting him. He pinched himself, dreading to find out that this could be a dream. “Yes, I am real,” Dahlia said. ”I want to help you. Give me your hand.”
Cautiously, Spike held out his hand and she took it. She closed her eyes and concentrated. “You will no longer be a goblin!” she chanted. Slowly the goblin was transforming. Secretly, Dahlia blessed Spike with two abilities of his own. The ability to see into the hearts of other creatures and the ability to let others see what he could see.
She opened her eyes to view her work. Spike had became the most handsome fairy that Dahlia could create, also with sparking wings and golden hair. He was paler than most fairies because of the drastic change of skin colour. This was beyond Dahlia’s abilities. “From this moment forward, you will be a fairy and leave this horrible place to live among us in the garden.”
Spike followed Dahlia back to her home and over the next few days she began to teach him the ways and beliefs of the fairy kind and introduced him to the other fairies as a prince from a neighbouring garden. They all grew to like Spike and he was very surprised at how quickly he fit in.
Dahlia was impressed by his progress and found herself falling for him against her wishes. He was forbidden to her because of her un-happy intent to marry. She refused to touch Spike as she could see what he saw. She saw herself through the eyes of a creature who was in love.
When Dahlia introduced Spike to her future husband, Lord Alexander was the first to take a disliking to him, for he saw in Spike everything he was not. Lord Alexander was a fairy with a goblin’s spirit, cold-hearted, dark and gloomy with a short temper and evil intentions. He had won over the fairy king and queen and fooled them into believing he was the right suitor for their daughter, while planning to take over their kingdom. When Spike shook Lord Alexander’s hand, he was the first to see him for what he was, an evil spirit, who did not deserve Dahlia’s hand in marriage.
Lord Alexander watched Spike and waited until that night when he was alone. “Spike, Spike, Spike,” the words dripped off his tongue, like poison. “You are hiding something from me, are you not?”
Spike was startled. “What do you mean?” he asked, confused and worried. Lord Alexander pointed to Spike’s heart. He was propelled backwards with the force of Lord Alexander’s abilities.
“You have feelings for my bride-to-be, hence you wish to take over the thrown?” Lord Alexander continued. “Don’t try to deny it. I can see it in the way you look at her.”
Spike struggle to stand up. He then tried to speak but Lord Alexander cut him off. “Don’t try to explain it. I’m not here to listen.”
“Then why are you here?” Spike finally could speak. There was fear in his voice.
Lord Alexander saw the fear in Spike’s eyes and was quite pleased with himself. “I want you to stay away from her,” he said with a threatening tone in his voice, “ Or else! Dahlia and this Kingdom are MINE!” Without giving Spike a chance to say anything more, he turned and disappeared into the darkness.
Spike shivered in his bed all night with fear. He could not sleep at all. Very tired and frustrated he rose from his bed and found a feathered quill and paper. He began to write a letter explaining that although he loved her and would always be grateful for all she had done for him, he could no longer stay in her kingdom for reasons he would not explain.
Spike flew into the window of her lair to deliver the letter. He left it on the end of her bed and quietly left, but Dahlia could feel a presence in her room and instantly woke. She opened her eyes to see Spike flying back out her window and jumped out of bed and ran to the window, calling him. “Spike, Spike! Come back!” Spike heard her and though it pained him, he did not turn around.
Dahlia then saw the letter on the end of her bed. Tears filled her eyes as she began to read it. Then without a second thought she flew out the window and into the night to find him. She didn’t have to look far, as she knew where she would find him. She was right. There he was sitting on the edge of that same drain, almost exactly how she first found him with his chin resting on his knees and his head in his hands, sobbing violently.
She sat beside him and touched his shoulder. All of a sudden she could see all of it, his love for her, the confrontation with Lord Alexander and her husband-to-be’s true colours. “Is Lord Alexander the reason you wanted to leave?” Dahlia asked through her own sobs.
“Yes,” said Spike.
“I’m not going to let you,” she continued. “I love you too much to let you disappear from my life.”
“You really do?” Spike couldn’t believe his ears. Could this be a dream, he thought. “What about Lord Alexander? Dahlia took his hand into hers and kissed it, softly.
“I never wanted him. I wanted you, but I was trapped in this marriage agreement with Lord Alexander. When I touched you I saw him for what he really is through you, and I am determined not to marry him.”
Spike looked at Dahlia in surprised amazement as she continued, “Yes, I gave you abilities, two very important gifts. I gave you the ability to see into the hearts of others and also the ability to allow others to see what you see. Right now I saw Lord Alexander for what he really is and you don’t want to know my thoughts of him, and I saw me, the way you do.”
There was an uncomfortable silence which followed Dahlia’s little speech. She looked at the cluster of clover below and studied their unusual but beautiful shape. A strand of hair fell from behind her ear, covering her face and blocking it from Spikes view. He reached out and tucked it back behind her ear and then stoked her cheek. She looked at him. “I love you,” Spike wanted to say. He didn’t have to say the words for Dahlia already knew. She could feel it in his heart. She closed her eyes as he leaned over to kiss her.
It was then, that she knew what she must do. She jumped up dragging Spike off his perch and levitated in the air, her wings flapping and sparkling under the moonlight. “Come on!” she cried. “We must go to my mother and father and show them what you know.” They flew off back to the king and queen’s lair.
Back at the lair, Dahlia proceeded to tell the king and queen about what she had found out about Lord Alexander and they took Spike’s hand and were shocked to see for themselves, the danger that they would all be in if they allowed this marriage to go ahead. They also saw Spike for what he used to be and questioned it. Spike, in his heart assured them that he meant no harm. They then saw their daughter as Spike saw her.
Finally the king spoke. “I should punish you, Dahlia, for you disobeyed the law of this kingdom and us, and allowed a goblin into our home,” Dahlia tried to speak, but her father silenced her. “However, I can see that Spike appears to have one of the truest hearts, one worthy of my daughter’s love. Hence I forbid you to marry Lord Alexander and marry this fine young prince, instead.” Dahlia happily threw her arms around her father, while her mother wiped away a tear of pride.
“Welcome to our kingdom and our family,” the queen said.
Lord Alexander was immediately summonsed, turned into a goblin and then banished to live with the rest of the goblins under my house. Spike and Dahlia were married the next morning. She looked beautiful, with her flowing veil and a tiara of clover in her hair. There had never been a happier pair of fairies in all the land then the future fairy king and queen.
THE END

The Troubled Fairy Child

Crimes

I watched the clock tick on the white wall behind him while he studied his notes, shaking his balding head. There was a mixture of amusement and disbelief in his amber eyes, the first emotion, I knew he was struggling to suppress. Mr Tomlinson rested his clean shaved chin on a bony arm, propped up on the plastic arm of his swivel chair, not disguising his concern.
He had dealt with so many students in this manner, many of which on a daily basis, but I, the neatly dressed student with the thick framed glasses and long blond plait down the middle of her back, was not one amongst the array of ‘types’ that sat opposite him, scruffy in their uniform and scowling as they waited for their punishment to be handed down.
“This is not the sort of behaviour I would’ve expected from you, Jasmine.”
His voice was soft spoken and he even sounded so sympathetic when he spoke that my gut sank even lower with guilt than what it already had been.
I knew what he meant. For so long I had been the good student – straight A’s, impeccable attendance and behaviour records and was the student most likely to be elected School captain in my senior year.
“How are things at home?”
“Fine.”
We both knew they really weren’t, but I was in no mood to talk about it. No amount of talking would under the damage I’d done and bring my sister back – nothing would. She was gone.
“Jasmine, you cannot go on with this behaviour. Stealing clocks? Bells? Traffic cones? Defacing school property? It’s not you. What could you possibly gain from that?”
I shrugged. I even stifled a giggle, recollecting the thrill I somehow found in committing these ‘crimes’ that had finally caught up with me. It was short lived as the principal continued his speech and I wondered if this was how he spoke to all the students who sat before him, summoned, as I had been to be reprimanded.
We both knew it wasn’t my usual behaviour, but I couldn’t begin to express how much I wanted to forget what had happened, even if it meant forgetting who I was.
I could feel the emotion swirling around the pit of my stomach, threatening to surface in a flood of sobs and tears, but I sat there, staring into my hands, hoping the principal would not see through my blank, cold face into the sadness I was squashing down.
“I can see you don’t want to talk about… things, so I will not push you, however I am concerned about your behaviour and the damage it is doing to your standing in this school. I am also concerned about the example you are setting to other students, who are looking to you for leadership. What does this say to them?”
I shrugged again wishing Mr Tomlinson would just hand down a ‘sentence’ and let me go so I could get out of there.
“I would expel most students for this sort of behaviour, but I don’t think that’s the answer here. Neither is suspension.”
I sighed, half relieved, but somehow cheated when he finally said, “Because of your outstanding records I am simply going to recommend you see our guidance officer and you will have a week of detention.”
“Yes Sir.”